I've had something troubling me, and these are the only words I have to help me through:
I have such an amazing support group with my family and friends, it has got me to wondering, what do people do that have no one? And when I say no one, I am not necessarily talking about the friends and family that I have.
I know not everyone has the wonderful and supportive husband that I have. It takes a real man to wash his wife like a baby, cry with her when she cries for no reason, and makes her laugh just because he can. I know I have a very special man.
I'm not talking about children who grow up faster than they really want to because reality has hit them right up beside the head. Katie has really stepped up and taken charge in a few situations.
And I know not everyone still has their parents, or maybe they don't have a very good relationship with their mom or dad. I have both and both have been right by my side from them minute I told them about the lump I found.
I am an only child and I know others out there don't have siblings they can talk to either. But I have my cousins who have been here to keep me focused on what needs to be done, that I need to focus on me, and that wake me every morning with a funny video to make laughter an important part of my day.
And I have two very special aunts that have been constantly in prayer and making sure I do everything right. And uncles that have been doing the same.
And I have so many friends from school, work, bass clubs, church and karate that I don't even consider them friends any more, they are family. Family is so much more than blood.
I have had prayers, cards, letters, food, visits, phone calls... the list goes on and on. I will never be able to thank all these people nor let them know what the simplest of prayers have meant to me.
But of all these people, that is not what I am talking about.
What about the people that don't know my God?
I pray for these people. I worry about them. How do they go forward from the moment they find the lump? How do they tell themselves that everything will be OK? What do they have faith in? I know God will never forsake me. I know he is with me every step of this journey and that when there are only one set of footprints, they are his because he is in control. I know that as bad as this nasty cancer is, he has a plan for me.
How do those with no faith know they will be OK? I know that even if I die, I will live! That is my faith. God is that faithful. I know he has a plan for me, he tells me so in Jeremiah 29:11.
I am no Bible scholar, I have trouble finding the simplest of scriptures. But I know the story of Jesus. I know what he can do for you. And I just want to tell you, if you are one of these people that want to know my God, let me know. I would love to tell you what I know about Him. He is the greatest healer I know.
I think sometimes this is the plan He has for me. Maybe I can help you find the faith that you need to know what I know, and that is...
Everything is going to be OK!
Until next time, God bless!